rootsgirl48

We All Look The Same In A Different Lite
2004-04-16 15:21:56 (UTC)

so much going on

so the day after becky got home i took her out for supper.
i told her i was on anti-depressants but avoided to tell
her about the cutting. i wanted to tell her so bad during
supper but every time i tried the words wouldn't come out.
i didn't even wanna eat my meal. we ended up leaving half
way through dinner. it took me like an hour before i would
tell her about the cutting. she said i'm ur best friends
and i love you now plz just tell me what's going on. i
just said i cut myself. she looked at me and said u cut
urself and i said yes i cut myself then i started crying.
she was kinda confused at first but then asked me why and
stuff. i told her i feel absolutely nothing inside, that i
am completely mumb. then she said we have to solve this
problem, i'll go with you to therapy or whatever you need
to do. i told her no and it was a me problem not a we
problem. but then she said i'm ur best friend so it's a we
problem. then she started crying and said she was afraid i
was gonna take the cutting to far and kill myself. i told
her i don't wanna kill myself just the cutting makes me
feel better. that made her feel a little bit better but
still she was upset about it. but that's my story.




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