Rae

Rae Chronicles
2004-04-16 02:06:09 (UTC)

new news to me

so I found out today that andy is dropping out of
college. He doesn't want to be in the FBI anymore so hes
dropping out and getting a full time job. He brought my
little bro home from work last night and came in and
talked to my mom. When I heard that my heart sank for
him. He has been so self assured for so long about his
future profession. He had it all set up and he was doing
well. It pains me that I don't know the reasoning behind
his actions and I can't be there for him. It hurts me the
most I think that I can't be a part of his life. We went
through the most eventful year of our lives together and
now we're not even friends. I want to be able to help him
how he was always able to help me.

I started thinking today that maybe if I really quit
everything for him that maybe we could make it work. I'm
so fucking ridiculous. I was just having a lapse of andy-
ness I guess. They say that you always have a thing for
your first. I think I always will. He told me that he
regrets everything. I really hope that isn't true I hope
it was his anger talking.

Plus he already has her.

God damn it I hate andy lapses

~*s*RAE*d*~




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