kiddo16

NaivetY & ChildhooD LefT BehinD
2004-04-15 05:39:11 (UTC)

WATEVA

After a long time den I realise tat I am not prepared at
all. I tot I am but in real fact, I am not. I discovered
tat I am not brave enough to face it. I can't imagine
myself to be there.
The thought came by chance. As I took the LRT, I saw poly
girls came in. Wow! In my mind, their fashion sense was so
great. Unlike me, in the middle of the crowd, really looks
like plain Jane; the-girl-next-door.
Another thing that's on my mind was they are very
sociable. Unlike me, I am too quiet. That's what my frens
always say. I should say that I am really too afraid to
open up my wings. Yeah I do have friends but only a small
circle of them.
I've got no idea why I am too afraid to socialize. For me,
making frens is really a difficult task. Sometimes, just a
simple thing like smiling, makes me freak out totally.
I really envy my sister in her abilities to socialize. She
has a whole lot of frens. However, she always has problems
with some of her frens. Its a wonder how she is able to
make frens with people from other neighbourhoods. In our
own neighbourhood itself, almost half of people know her.
Well yeah maybe, like what most of my friends say, I have
a very low self-esteem. Maybe I should buck up in
socializing. I think I should buck up on my confidence
starting from now.
Like what my parents always say, "Why do you have to keep
your mouth shut always? It's not as if there is gold in
your mouth!" And guess what I always replied, "WATEVA!"




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