Theres only one you

Beautiful Disaster
2004-04-13 01:54:36 (UTC)

i wonder

Yeah i really dont get life, why are things like this? Why
are some people happy and some people sad. Why do some
people have everything and some people have nothing. Do we
just think we have nothing because we dont see what we
really have? I think that is it. Really i do, there are
poor people who are happier then some people i know. Lots
of people in america over eat, or just dont eat, and yet
there are people in other countries who would love to have
what we have, to have nice houses, freedom, money and
food. Yet we think life is so bad. Does it really matter
whos life is worse, because pain and suffering is all the
same no matter what lenth it come in? Yeah idk.

Do we only believe in god because we need something to
believe in? Some times i think so because i dont know how
people could say that god saves and all this but yet still
there is so much tormoil and saddness in the world. Why
isnt he saving the sad people, the homeless, the crimes? I
just dont get it. But then i do believe in him because it
makes sense, but idk.

I always say that i just need Chris to be happy, but you
know what it isnt true, yes i would be happy if i had him,
but i can be happy without him to. Only i can make me
happy. I have to chose it for myself, and i will find the
way to do that, and when i do no one is going to be able
to stop me.

I also need to realize that i can not make other people
happy, and i cannot end other peoples pain and suffering
just because i want to, there are things that i can do in
terms of being there and being kind to people and what
not.... but in the end..... i will never be able to help
them until they help themselves. Really i think that is
where everyone gets caught up, they say they want to be
happy and that they are so sad and everything ( i do it
to) but then we never get up and fix it. It will never be
better until you care enough to get up and fix it yourself
without depending on other people and without letting
anyone get in yourway. Which is also hard for some people
because then they would seem selfish to some people.

Ok well i am done here now. lol

Loves bye




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