Beauty Within

Fuck Me Pretty
2004-04-07 03:23:40 (UTC)

Mleh

Ok you guys I am really sorry. If I had never said
anything about it this would all be fine and people would
be fine and just. idk but now everyone is involved and its
all just jumbled in my head and its all giving me a head
ache. So I am sorry for even bringing up the subject, lets
just end it ok? I love you

I am on the phone with Kenny right now. Not that you care
but just thought I would share anywayz.

Tyler. Yea sorry i talk about him in like every entry but
thats ok cuz you really don't have to read this if you
don't want to. I won't call him tonight, I won't I refuse.
I feel so much like I am bothering him but now I don't
know what to think because when I do call and when I do
talk to him he sounds so happy to hear my voice and to
talk to me and we talk for a long time and he never sounds
upset or anything to hear my voice. but I think I am
bugging him because he never ever calls me, I always call
him. I just feel like I am bothering him and ahhh I need
to stop this but I can't help it its always on my mind.

I don't really feel like pretending anymore, I am sick of
pretending I would rather sit in my room and never. Write
my thoughts to myself in this journal instead of messing
up everything and being so stupid all the time. Maybe if I
never left my room people would be happier... would I be
happier or just avoiding life... idk.

Anyway the choir concert went fairly well Carleigh did
really good and so did some other people. well yea thats
all i am still on the phone with Kenny... bye




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