RockGoth111

It's My Life
2004-04-06 05:27:29 (UTC)

Drifting in and out of thoughts

Class outside?
It's hard to concentrate.
The sounds have cried out and the drone of Dr. Hein's
voice has become faint as I am lost in the afternoon.
The wind playfully blows the pages of my notebook.
The sun warms my back.
The grass has become greener with the welcoming of Spring.
Take a breath of life.
The laughter of those passing by.
Hood seems alive today and for once I seem alive too.
What is it that has brought me to life?
I should be dead.
I am failing my classes.
Today I seem not to mind.
My car is on its last leg.
Today I will drive faster.
Why do I give in?
Nothing seems to make since.
I do not know where I stand.
Am I ruining my life?
Or is it the begining of a new understanding?
I want to go forward, but I want to go back.
Go back to when my sister and I could escape life and run
our imaginations wild.
Only having to worry about being home on time.
Years change and I now think of someone else.
But he does not understand.
I have a need to rely on and be relyed on in return by one
other person.
He does not think this way.
Why can he not spend just one entire day with me?
The things we could learn...
This is not what he wants.
He does not want to be here, but he does not complain.
I take care of him.
That is what he needs and that is why he is here.
I just want someone to understnad me...
Someone I can just sit with and have a complete
understanding of eachother without ever speaking a single
word...




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