Manda3369

SweetNothing
2004-04-05 20:37:45 (UTC)

Just Thinking

Someone once said to go after what I wanted. I was told
that I had had the power to make my dream a reality. All I
had to do was want it bad enough and it would be mine. I
now realize why things have gone wrong. Why I feel
heartbreak, why I feel pain, why I become cold. The things
I have had my heart set on in the past, I guess I didn't
want them bad enough. The pain, the heartbreak and the
cold person I become is my own fault. One of my main
problems is caring too much, when one cares too much they
are at greater risk for pain and heartbreak. On a positive
note, it tends to makes me stronger. Although, I question
whether all of it breaks me inside. So, it's a matter of
being strong and weak at the same time. There are still
things I want, still things I want to pursue. I wonder to
myself if I still have the power I once had. The power to
make my dream a reality, maybe not to that extent, but
what I mean is that I don't know if this power, of making
things happen, still exists within me.


I always contradict myself. Any comments though?




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