Ms. R

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2004-04-03 03:39:44 (UTC)

Thirtyfirst Entry- 4-2-04

What a past couple days!

Mom fell down and broke her hip. Thankfully, she is going
to be fine. Had surgery today to repair it...she now has a
plate and pins in it. I hope she can recover well and
doesnt have any pain or much difficulty walking. Its all
she has left to do now since she cant see and is slowly
losing her memory. I got her a pretty flower arrangement
and a box of candy. I remember when I had my kids and was
in the hospital. Nobody got me any flowers and the girl
next to me felt SO bad that she gave me her balloons when
she left. So I always like to give something to ANYONE in a
hospital.

Saw Steve for dinner a couple days ago...went to the
Chinese buffet and I pigged out on crab legs. I could eat
them 7 days a week :) I probably wont get to see him again
until next week, as I have my daughter for the weekend.
Have talked to R online a few times. I think he wants to
disappear again....well FINE. Let him. I am getting SO
fucking disgusted with men that think they are doing ME a
favor by ignoring me.

JK and I have been e-mailing back and forth a lot lately. I
like the man. He is the only man I ever met that I fell
head over heels for at first sight. I dont think it could
ever go anywhere, but...

I really like Steve a lot. But as I have gotten to know
him, there are some things about him that I dont know if I
am compatible with. He is a real gentleman....I cant deny
that. Opens doors for me, helps me with my coat. But he is
a city person....and I am NOT. He was brought up with a
different mentality than I was. And he isnt acting like the
man I first met who said he was crazy about me. He couldnt
wait to talk to me online or call me on the phone...sent me
little e-mails, couldnt wait to see me. Now when I am
online he hardly notices me, he hardly ever calls. He says
he loves me, but he has a funny way of showing it. He still
gives me the line about being so busy and that may be true.
I sure hope it is. But I have long ago learned my lesson
about sticking around when I am not wanted.

Well my puter is doing fine again after its malware
meltdown....thank goodness. But I still want to get another
system for a back up. But I will wait for a computer
show...thats where to get the deals.

Ok....thats enough for now. Will write more tomorrow.




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