showing through

days and days
2004-03-31 04:39:23 (UTC)

a word or two?

It's only tuesday and somehow i feel like the weekend is
only a day or two away... I hate that feeling, knowing
there is SO much you have to do this week and it'll pass
you so quickly as soon as you think it's going to all work
out... boohiss.
I've been working since about 5pm... that's like 6 hours,
and I kind of feel like i've completely lost my mind. I
kept laughing at absolutely nothing with any humour, and
i'd sit there looking slightly insane, and realize that
working really isn't for me...
Having all these homosexual-related subject conversations
with my parents is really weird... and it's because of my
project on same-sex unions, but it creeps me out.. mainly
because I feel like I am putting ideas in their heads..
lol. Honestly, I cannot understand some of the things
people want to know about gay people, it's ridiculous... WE
ARE STILL PEOPLE.. not some freakish other species... lord.
it's kind of offensive, but also incredibly entertaining. I
can't decide if i want to laugh at them, or yell at them..
maybe both, at the same time! :P WHAT A CONCEPT! (lol)
Anyway, i'm not feeling incredibly poetic because my brain
hurts from so many source findings, and cards to fill out..
and I'm only on my second cup of tea (maple tea!) so I
haven't the energy to be exciting...
I'll part from this place where each word holds together
the true meaning of what we feel... so clearly, after
reading this through I've realized that what i feel is
numbness because I'm exhausted and confused by life. mainly
confused by my laughing spurs... and although a relief from
crying, it still creeps me out.. makes me feel high and
uhhh.. like jelly inside... plus my parents are super weird
and my dad was like "i never thought ron was hot... but
that's just me" (because my neighbours are gay and one
(brad) calls ron (his partner) sexy papa! hahahah)...
anyway it was funny.. but i'm done..
and i gotta go because all this writing and hopes of a
clever, witty or poetic spur of a sentence is getting low
and somehow unattainable...
so taketh careth until next time, when hopefully I will be
of some use and will stop lowering your IQ and your eyes
skim over these disgraceful words :P
Good Night




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