Red Mini Punch

I'm a Lone Ranger
2004-03-30 21:28:50 (UTC)

Doing Quite Well

I'm doing quite well with this diary malaraky. At least I
write in it quite often! Not much to say 2nite (yeh,
shock horror) Been addicted to a game on the internet the
whole nite, and I have a sore heed. Played footie at
lunch, I used to think I was quite good, but now.... I
haven't played in so long and it's showing. I just love
to be on the pitch though, I love the sport! Today I
found out that Pamela actually drinks! I mean not in
general, but she has, when she was away on netball! Kind
of a shock, but I totally want to get pissed with her
now. I can't actually stop talkin about drink can i? I'm
terrible! Anyway, on the complete opposit side, I have a
camp next week. For once I'm not that looking forward to
it. You know, I've kind of lost my faith a bit cos of all
the shit with my parents. And I keep getting worried that
she is With Andy agen, I think they are meeting up
tomoro. I suppose it could be completely harmless. It's
fuckin me up in the brain! someday I think I'll give
people a link to this diary so they can kidna see the shit
I have to go through... Everyone always think that Im so
happy, no problems, dont care what others think. And i
dont mind having to listen to other people's problems, but
sumtimes it feels like they are being a bit selfish, they
dotn stop to ask if anything is on my mind. Altho To be
honest I probs wouldn't tell them, so not much point
there. I mite sound sad, but i wish Colin wud just txt me
so I knew were I stood. His sister still dusn't talk to
me (did I tell i about her?). She is in my year, and she
knew that herbro had spent the nite as sumg irl's house.
Only Chloe told her and her possie it was me (thanks for
that Chloe!), yeh anyway, she was liek he totally regrets
it. But they all only think we pulled, and its not that,
that he regrets! And I want to poitn this out, btu I dnt
want them to know what we got up to. So I just let her
think wat she wants. Then hear that she told her mates
that i took advantage of Colin because he was drunk (like
fuck i did, he wasnt even tipsy!) So I told her chum that
was rogn and I was teh only pissed one. So then she told
Ruth's possie, that we pulled and we were both drunk. If
it wasn't for Chloe no one would know (apart from Aileen's
possie). I see that I have agen written too much. Had
frencfh NAB today,w ent pertty well, managed to memorise
most of thingy. I'm so tempted to show someone my diary,
jst so they know hwat I go through. I mean I know its not
that bad compared to some of the other problems people
have that I read in the diary, btu it still does me up
inside u kno? Maybe one day I will give the link to Mark?
I trust him with my life, it's good to talk 2 him. But he
only know partially about my parents, he dont know botu
Andy. But mayeb he wouldn't even be that interested?
I'll Just keep it to myself.
Neway g2g, parent-a-prowling (my mum is tellin me to go
to bed, not my bro tho, altho he is a yr younger!)
xxx




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