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bleedingout
2004-03-30 20:34:18 (UTC)

next time use abigger knife in my back

well today was a semi- ok say .. for a little while, it
seemed to start out pretty bad, i woke up kinda sick but i
toughed it out and went to school anyway, and the day
seemed to be going well.. key word =SEEMED...
well i found out the whole thing about her falling for him
ws true, but i also found out that he recenlty got with
someone else, and i mean ok he got with her, but she was
worth risking thier friendship and i wasnt? not to sound
conceited in the leat bit, but i just dont get it, i really
thought that i meant a little more than that to him, but
obvioulsy not... and i still am in shock over her doing
this to me, and i dont know what to even feel anymore, its
like i've been betrayed by both of them on so many levels,
and i thought i could trust the both of them, and i cant
and its just a slap in the face.. but hey if i meant
nothing to them then im better off without both of them, or
at least i should be, just its gonna take a little time..
but in the meanwhile i've been trying to take notice to
other guys around me, and i have.. to one person
particularly.. so maybe this will help a little bit.. but i
jsut hope that one day .. ill find someone who i can be
with and be with only him and know its right, because if
there's any feeling thats better than the one i had with
him, then it must really be amazaing to be in love




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