psychomagnet

sleeptodreamher
2004-03-26 02:24:52 (UTC)

i made the wrong decision. big..

i made the wrong decision.

big fucking surprise.

ashleys right, fuck her. ashleys right, it IS THAT fucked
up. its time. its time to leave.

i am DONE FUCKING WAITING.

i am DONE playing.

i am DONE being the fucking weak idiot.

i am DONE D O N E PERIOD.

its not too late. i'm applying to UWF tomorrow. and i
WILL fucking leave.

i can not wait one more fucking day.

for someone who doesnt even know what the fuck they're
doing or fucking care.

i dont care.

she can sit there with her lights turned off with a fucking
splitting headache unable to go to the doctor and busting
her fucking ass with that fucking lazy piece of shit
fucking cunt until they end up repossessing her car because
she was too fucking proud or stupid to fucking do the RIGHT
thing. i dont fucking care. because i wont know. i wont
BE HERE. i DONT FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.

what is she fucking confused?? what is there to be
confused about? people dont get it.

if two people could make each other happy and make each
others lives better, what the fuck more do you want.
thats what its all about.

people dont get that.

and if she doesnt KNOW by now. she is never going to know.

so she will waste her entire life like this without even
thinking about the amount of time thats passing in
unhappiness and more stress than any one person should have.

she will do that.

she will waste her time but no more of mine.

i swear to fucking god. i dont care how hard i have to
pretend i dont care how long i have to sit in the parking
lot crying i dont care WHAT it takes im DONE FUCKING
WAITING.

and they can just take my fucking ovaries out.

and i'll be unable to have a baby. because i dont care.

i dont care.

im not going to live that fucking long anyway.

i swear to god.

I AM NEVER FEELING LIKE THIS AGAIN EVER I AM DONE FUCKING
FEELING LIKE THIS I DONT CARE WHAT IT TAKES I DONT CARE IF
I HAVE TO LEAVE MY JOB AND FRIENDS, I DONT CARE IF HAVE TO
SLIT MY FUCKING WRISTS RIGHT NOW, I WILL NOT I WILL NOT
FEEL LIKE THIS FOR ONE MORE FUCKING DAY.


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