Prosthetic_Mind

Beyond teenage angst
2004-03-22 00:51:04 (UTC)

Giving up Christ for Lent

Kirsten has been my best friend off and on for years. We
were so fucking close in high school. Freakishly close, I
guess. We went through the whole punk phase together.
Short lived, but fun while it lasted. We searched for
faith together and she found Xtianity. I didnt scorn her
or anything even though we were againt it and its
amazingly contradictory nature...but she likes it, i
guess. she's able to counterattack a lot of my points
which I respect that she researched it. I remember when
she told me she was Xtian..she said, "i think i'm xtian"
and i said, "i respect that" and she said, "that's why
we're best friends." but a couple weeks ago, after not
talking for awhile, I tried to explain where my faith now
lies, and she made a whole bunch of sarcastic marks, and
that sickened me. Anyway, we rarely discussed religion
after that. I went to church w/ her a couple times, only
to listen..not to worship. So she started dating Eric
Freeman. Good for her, she needed someone, right? Oh
wait, I forgot to add, they liked each other for awhile, I
guess. And one saturday, kirsten and i were going to
crusade meaning put flyers on cars, pick up cans, and
stuff..but she wanted to bring eric freeman. i figured
that we'd do some stuff then pick him up. Whatever, Eric
is okay. But no. We picked him up first then "crusaded"
which is complete bullshit. She paid more attention to
him than the task at hand which really pissed me off. A
couple weeks later, I told Eric online and he apologized a
whole bunch, but I don't blame him. I blame her. Well, I
blame myself for thinking that she'd be different than
every other girl. Prolly even me. Anyway, they've been
going out for less than a month and she's already had sex
with him. That blew my mind. A week before she told me
she was going on about how she believed in premarital
sex. and I remember when she found out that Kevin and I
had sex..she got all greater than thou saying I shouldnt
have. Well what the fuck. Lastly, her parents HATE me.
They think I'm a bad role model b/c of my "radical"
views. Whatever, why do people tend to hate me? I
seriously don't know. Someone fucking tell me, so I can
fix it before I die alone.




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