Crazy in Blue

Singing In the Rain or A downpouring
2004-03-19 00:28:32 (UTC)

Imma Make You Luv ME Baby . . . .

I SO WISH THAT WAS TRUE. JUST WHEN I THOUGHT MY DAY WAS
GOING TO BE A BRIGHTER ONE, BECAUSE I GOT A LETTER IN THE
MAIL, I GET A LETTER FROM THE ASSHOLE SIDE, NOT THE REAL
ROMMEL. THE BASTARD ALREADY HAS SOME CHICK ON THE BOAT.
AND THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO SHIT LIKE THAT ANYWAY.
AND YES, I CAN ADMIT THAT I AM HELLA JEALOUS, WE ALL KNOW
THAT IS HOW I GET. THE SAD THING IS, I CAN ALREADY SEE
THAT THIS ISN'T GOING TO GO HOW I PLANNED IT.

THE LETTERS WERE SUPPOSED TO GET LONGER, AND MORE
DETAILED, ABOUT HOW MUCH HE MISSED ME, AND ALL THAT. WHY
CAN'T I HAVE WHAT I WANT, EVER WITH HIM. YOU WOULD THINK
I WOULD BE USED TO THIS. JUST TODAY, I WAS THINKING ABOUT
HOW I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ALL THE SHIT OTHER PEOPLE
DO, BECAUSE I HAVE HIM, AND I KNOW THAT HE IS GOING TO BE
MINE. THEN HE TURNS AROUND AND WRITES AN ASSHOLE LETTER
LIKE THAT.

I AM SO TIRED OF THIS LIL GAME THAT WE PLAY, IT'S FUCKED
UP AND STUPID. NOT TO MENTION PLAYED OUT. HOW CAN I LOOK
AT LIZ AND THINK ABOUT HOW SHE IS PLAYING HERSELF, WHEN I
ESSENTIALLY DO THE SAME THING WITH HIM, AND I DON'T EVEN
GET ASS FROM HIM. THAT IS A DAMN SHAME, I NEED TO WORK ON
THAT. I ALSO NEED TO GET THE BALLS TO TALK TO PEOPLE THAT
I WANT TO TALK TO, INSTEAD OF JUST BEING FRIENDS. IT'S A
PAIN IN THE ASS TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH EMOTIONS LIKE THIS.
IMMA BE OKAY THOUGH, BECAUSE I HAVE TO, IN ORDER TO BE
READY FOR WHAT GOD REALLY DOES HAVE IN STORE FOR ME.

HOLLA AT A PLAYA WHEN YOU SEE ME ON TOP, BECAUSE I DAMN
SURE AM ON MY WAY THERE!