Evilsmellysocks

Elle's Journal
2004-03-18 02:43:43 (UTC)

March 17th...havent written in a while

Well Happy St.Patricks Day, if that really means anything
whatsoever..WEll to catch yall up on the past few days...I
painted my room today blue and lime green it looks frickin
awesome and I cant wait for the rest of it to be
done..Yesterday I didnt feel like going to school and was
so exhausted from all this stress that Ive been going
through lately my mom actually thought I was sick..so I
didnt go..and today we only had school til 10:30..which
makes no sense so I just didnt go..my mom doesnt even know
that I didnt go..but oh well shes not gonna find out...yeah
these past 2 weeks Ive been in zombie mode..I stay up all
night...pull something outta the dirty laundry..drag myself
to school..sit there all day gazing out the window..then go
to play practice til 6 then dance til 8 then home on the
computer til god knows when...This girl Amanda that lives
down the road from me that Ive known since we were little
started slashing herself..all over her wrists and arms and
everywhere she could get the razor..sometimes I feel like
thats the only way out of this living hell Ive been going
through..but I dont know how to tell her to stop when Im
about to start


Elle




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