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p|ss3d_oFF_bUt_tRy|ng 2 k33p da P|ss in.
2004-03-17 00:25:00 (UTC)

The hint...

Just woke up and jogged... Yes, jogged... Just felt like
doing it... Had a good sleep last night... The first good,
real, non- pill- induced sleep for this year!!! Hurrah!!!
And i'm proud of it...

I have an astounding ability to crap... And crap needs more
airtime in my studio cos i abandoned it quite a while
ago... Now it's back! Wad a whole load of crap!

Anyway, i do realise that all that i've put up here are
poems or thots of death and destruction... Hehehe... now i
find it ridiculous... How ironical! But frankly, poems are
the best things that unfabricate me... And i love them...
NO, NOT those straight forward types... You noe.. those
modern types all teenagers are obsessed to write... (Sorry,
Iskandar, hehe)...

So now i shall reduce my poem- posting... Cos i dun want
ppl to judge me by how they interpret a poem... That's
quite stupid...

I think i have pms now... Not that it means my period's
gonna come... but the fact that I get increasingly bitchy
by the day, by the hour... I speak of truth... But crudely
and bluntly... And ppl either get amused by my "humourous"
(as they call it), sarcastic comments OR simply get
angry... I enjoy this, but i do realise i can hurt ppl...
Aggravating ppl... gee... How fun!!!

There's one thing i surely hate now... The people who do
not have a mind of their own... They follow people...
People they treat as leaders... They only act when told
to... Like a dummy puppeted by the herd- minded...

When these ppl are around, this blanket of ice just crept
into my blood and seeped away my euphoria. i didn't like
the presence of some people... yet... i smile that wide
grin, that oh-so familiar laughter that rings through the
air like some kind of siren... that glint in my eye...
where is the truth? where is individuality? where is
liberation? where is independence? where is maturity? where
is logic? where are you?

I'm out of words again... So i end here... Yours truly,
Yati...




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