J-Bunny

My Life (yawn)
2004-03-16 01:03:41 (UTC)

Secret

I have a secret. I like someone and he's married. I can't
get him out of my head. I'm fucked.
This has NEVER happened to me before. I've always read the
riot act to T about her involvement with married men. We've
gotten into some humdinger fights about it and now look at
me.
We met in CA when I was working. Who knew that we worked so
close together, of all the friggin states.
I asked if this seat was taken. I'd come up from behind him
so it's not like I was goo-goo at the first site. And to be
honest he's not really goo-goo material but the chemistry.
Holy shit. The second I looked into his eyes I was blown
away. I could feel the electric current. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
He was staying at the same hotel and said he saw me in the
bar a couple of times (of course I was in the bar). We also
were on the same flight home which was really coincidental.
We exchanged cards, because that's what you do at these
things. I never thought he'd call me but he did on the
following Tuesday asking me for lunch. I hesitated and
almost blew him off but then said screw it and we met last
Friday.
Casual, nice. I don't know what prompted me to give him a
hug when I saw him, not like I'm affectionate with anyone.
Maybe it was when he said "I forgot how beautiful you
were." OK, I know that was a line of crap but I bought it.

Anyway, I must get my senses together and stop obsessing
about him. I'm just so weirded out about the electricity
thing. Gesh.

Tomorrows the big day. My tonsils are getting yanked. I'm
psyched, I'll hopefully lose that 10 dam lbs that I can't
get rid of.

Well I've got to go and get some last minute shit done,
picking up and figure out what to wear to the hospital.
God, I hope this doesn't hurt too much.

Good night.




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