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2004-03-15 11:26:33 (UTC)

Reflection: 21Grams

Ok, so this is my first (very first) entry into this
online diary thingy. One of my friends was telling me
about this so I thought I would try it out for fun. I
honestly have no idea what to put down as my first entry
topic or what to write about for my first entry…. So I
am just going to go with the flow I guess.

It’s sometimes the odd situations in life that I
enjoy the most. Those situations and times when you are
not sure what to exactly think of an issue…. I just
got done watching 21Grams with a friend (who used to be a
good friend but due to his past choices to get very
involved with the opposite sex, which happens to all of us
in one way or another at some point, I don’t see much of
him anymore). My favorite types of movies are definitely
Dramas, so over all I loved the movie. For those of you
who have not seen 21 Grams I suggest you see it, but for
those who have already seen it you already know that it is
a sad movie over all but with a wonderful story/plot. (why
the comments on this movie?) The movie is a perfect
example of how I feel tonight: without a happy ending,
unfulfilled, and most of all without peace. But… the
movie left me with one notion that has inspired me
tonight: not to take life for granted. Every day I am so
very guilty of doing this. I will see what others have and
be jealous, or simply look at what I don’t have and look
for those things I “need.” But tonight out of that list
in my head that I think I “need,” what is it that I
really do NEED? What is it that I am looking so deeply
for? And my honest answer: I really have no clue, but I
still search and look for more solutions to this ever
growing epidemic on a daily basis. Relationships are
the most important thing to me. So, if I really don’t want
to take advantage of life anymore, I should avoid to take
advantage of relationships I have in life. With people
that mean the most to you, it can be hard to treat them
with respect because you are used to them, you are the
most comfterble around them, and thus it is easy to just
unload verbally (or un-verbaly) on them from stress.
Choosing to do this less would not only help my
friendships and relationships get “better” but it would
also encourage those that mean a lot to
me. ….again…. my
conclusion? = Not quite sure yet but I am way tired so
that might explain my lack of since in conversation.
But if there would be anything I would love for you (as
the reader) to reflect on….: see the movie 21Grams. It
is soooo good and I can not describe to you how exactly it
is… (get ready for a tear jerker if you see it). If
there would be one character I would relate myself to… it
would be (I totally forget her name ) but the main girl
character in the movie. (what she goes through describes
how I feel in life so well…. Hard to explain)




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