Fairy2Bloody2C

Life Without An Answer
2004-03-14 22:10:29 (UTC)

TODAY IS SUNDAY!! lol

Today is Sunday, which mean tomorrow is Monday, which means
I get to go back to school! lol

I like school, getting up at 5:00 in the morning, griping
out my parents, and then going and my friends gripe at me..
WOO fun fun fun

I got my thing on RateMyBody.com, woo lol.. I am under
FairyGirl7..
The whole story is that my bro Ben and I were talking and I
went on www.ratemybody.com looking for my friend that is on
there, and then I said "I should put my pic on here and see
how many people rate me above a 2" and so now, I on there..
lol

=I miss Brandon more than ever before... just something
about K.C&JOJO's song "Crazy" & "All my Life" that makes me
weak about it. I kept saying that I was going to be okay,
and shit... but now I am not so sure. I mean this is the
first time that I think that me and him won't get back
together.. but that is in the past now, I am thinking..
=I just hope me and him are still cool, he kept asking me
if I was mad at him.. I kept saying "No, I am not mad at
ya" and I was lying, but I just don't know how to
say "Brandon, it hurts to be your friend, It hurts to be
your lover, and it hurts to be your stranger." It's juss
so hard to say that really.. especially when you care for
someone as much as I do him, or at least as I think I do..
=think of if ur a guy and looking ur Best Friend *thats a
girl* for 5 years now in the eyes and saying "I can't be ur
friend 'coz it is just to much for me right now" or a girl
looking a guy that has been her friend for 5 years now and
saying "I can't be your friend 'coz it is too much pain on
my heart to bear."

I keep saying everything works out for the best, but I just
don't believe it when I say it.. I mean I try so hard to be
everything Brandon wants me to be.. but I just can't do it
all the time. Maybe this break up is trying to tell me
that me and him has to be over, and this is where it has to
happen..

I would try to tell him that he isn't getting rid of me,
but that wouldn't do anything.. I mean I tell him I still
love him and that I will be here for him, and that that
that is hard on me..

I guess maybe days will get better

~*~Miss Confused About Love~*~




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