showing through

days and days
2004-03-12 03:51:12 (UTC)

burning already

I can't see the sun yet.. but i know what it'll feel like..

The warmth will beat down on me like a hot drum and pound
it's heat through my skin... running it's tongue down my
back leaving it raw, and sensitive...
The scent of alcohol will fill the air, rising above the
smell of lotion and various tanning oils. Each of the
already superficial girls will be trying hardest to get as
dark as possible, while becoming more and more intoxicated
as the day passes.
It'll be beautiful... the beach i mean. The ocean stretches
out as far as the eye can see, dazzling us with it's
tranquility and mistery. The shades of blue amaze me, they
always have, and probably always will. How can something so
beautiful be natural. Although, i've met such natural
beauty in a person before, and their eyes seem to be as
deep as the ocean's floor... but everytime i see this huge
body of water, spread so gracefully, being hugged by the
white sand, it makes me wonder... how much is there out
there that i'm not seeing?...

The experience of a lifetime is sitting before me, 25 hours
away, actually... and it's been so hard to really be
excited or whatever since this week has been nothing but
shitty... but i actually, as disturbing as it may be,
released alot of my anger and stuff as i ripped hair out of
my legs earlier... don't get me wrong, it hurt like a
bitch... but the pain was there.. and there was no blood.
but the cleanup was still a pain in the ass...

tomorrow i will be staying home... avoiding the world and
preparing for the biggest drunk-fest in brittany history...
so this should be interesting...
I'll probably write a little tomorrow before i head off...
bah... i wonder what would happen if the plane crashed and
everyone died... imagine the impact.. holy shit.
(i think i am beginning to scare people with the way i
speak of death.. i shall stop it. i'm scaring the kids)




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