MyDeaRprOmise

My journal 03
2004-03-11 20:52:30 (UTC)

SAmmy COnFUsezz me?

Hello Diary,

Today is Thursday. It was an okay day. Ehh tracy’s yelling
at me cause she’s gay but hey that’s life. GoSh darnet she
gets me so pissed off, Man she has no idea what’s gonna hit
her when she goes off to college. I bet you she gonna get
bitich slapped within the first week.:0) Ever since she’s
got accepted to Stupid RIT she’s treating me like I’m 5
years old. Grr I’m Trying so hard not to punch her face in.

Yeah well anyways I called Sam last nigth ehh about
10:30.He gota fricken beep and was telling me he would call
me back.Witich I knew was a lie.Soi said “ No ur not” and
it was quite for like 2 mins. I didn’t mean to make him
feel Bad I just. . I donnno I don’t like being lied to and
I knew he was lieing or that what I thought. SO he gose..”
ok ur right I’m not going to call you but can u call me
back in like 20 mins?” And I said “ Sure..”
And that was that. It was getting quite late so I called
like 3 times and NO one answered the beep. GRRR.. So it was
around 11:30 and I tried to call him and HE Picked up * oh
yeah* hah hah. Yeah we really didn’t talk. It was kinda odd
cuz he wrote me that email and.. I didn’t write him back
what I shud have and stupid me I just realized that know.
Yeah so I played The WilD KAT SONG. Lol. We both love this
song. It makes Absoulty no sense at all. And I played the
hole thing for him.. And he loved it. We were both laughing
so hard.
*I wish I could have made-out with him. But what night
don’t I think about that. Heh heh.. *
Well HE had to go cuz his dad wanted him off the phone. So
he had to go it was so cute thou cause it when like this….

Me: do you have to go?
Sam: Yeah. . ..
Me: moan: . You just got on
Sam: Moan: I know.
Me: that not fair.
Sam: I know, Do u think you can call me tomorrow? (In his
REAL VOICE witch I love)
Me: ahhh,. . . . no actually I can’t I have to work.
Sam: oh . ..
Me: yeah. . .
Sam: Ok well I have to go before I get yelled at again.
Me: ok you shud write me back
Sam: ok , if I can get on the computer again?
Me: So… that’s a no . ..
Sam: :Sighs:
Sam: I’ll try
Me: ok
Sam: ok.
Me: ok
Sam: ok
Sam: well im gonan hung up now,
Me: Ok,
ME: I love you
Sam: I miss you too.
Me: mmm… kiss
Sam: mmm… kiss
Me: ok buh bye
Sam: bye . . ..

Yeah. . . . I love sam, Like if you didn’t know by now
heh heh. I want to be with him SO bad. I SO badly just want
to run my hands threw his hair and have a make out session.
Heh heh. I miss him So much.

Diary,
I have to admit to something. I’m starting to have feelings
for Sam back like I did when we were together, I miss him
so much. :I’m gonna cry.: Its just so hard because I DO
believe him. He’s just getting me confused by saying how
he loves me. I’m not sure if he means just as friends or
him and I getting back together? I don’t want to be blunt
about it cause I’ll just look stupid. It’s just so sad to
me Cause he’s so far away that’s not really the problem I
guess it cause I can’t stop thinking about him. Ehh.. My
head hurts.
I just wish I could see him. AHH it’s almost been Fricken 3
months. .. . Sighs I donno what to do I think im just
gonna email him part of this Journal entry and see’s what
he says. Wish me luck.




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