a little piece of me
2004-03-10 20:01:09 (UTC)

feeling ick

i don't know what's going on with me lately. i am just so
tired i can't stand it. i keep having dizzy spells, too. all i
want to do is sleep! yesterday i took a 2 hour nap, then
went to bed at 10:00. i had to get up at 6 today, but then
i took an hour nap earlier. i'm still exhausted. maybe i
should see a doctor. i don't want to worry turtle with all
of that, and we don't really have the money. i still think
it's connected to my lymph node. it's almost time for
another cat scan, too. damn it. it's been almost a year
since that started giving me trouble, and still no relief. i
can't keep throwing money down the drain like that, but i
can't go on like this forever, either.

anyway, this tired thing cycles. i'll be ok for a week or
two, then it will hit me hard again. not only that, but i've
been sick 3 times since christmas. i can't seem to get
over anything and stay over it. this time it's a sinus
thing. last time it was a sore throat. before that it was a
little of both. i think i'll go get turtle's lunch ready for
work, then lay down for a bit again. i know i'm wasting
so much time, but i don't think i can function if i don't.
ugh. when will it end!?!

took a trip with my dad today. made some good money.
i'm glad i could go, cause we really needed it. no
matter how hard we try, we can't get ahead. well, i'm
too tired to go on, so i'm outa here for now.