Anonymous

A Story a Day
2004-03-08 15:43:05 (UTC)

Day Eight

10:01am
And so the second week begins. This is to be the hardest
week, I estimate. For a number of reasons. One that
spring break still looms over my head and Christine isn't
far behind. But scondly day Eleven to Fourteen is the
toughest part of starting somehting new, a good habit. So
we'll see how it goes. I do recall Saturday being harder
than any. Sleeping all day, I needed to get up but my
brain kept telling me to just give up. I hate how I can
convince myself of anything. That will be my undoing.
That or my great love of sleeping in the morning. I
wasn't terribly good at getting up and going to sleep ons
scheule this weekend.

9:34pm
And yes, I left work after doing practically nothing all day
and went to the gym. Feel good about that. See how that
goes. But today was the doctor day. I see if I'm indeed
sick or just sick in the head. They took blood but I forgot
you're not supposed to eat first. I'm an idiot. But
hopefuly they can do something with it. I guess right after
eatting the blood becomes flooded with crap that fucks with
the testing for such diseases as diabetes, tyroid, cancers,
all manner of liver disorders and my personal favorite, HIV.
I signed an extra thing and took an extra vial cause it's
been a year and I've been sort of...naughty. I need to
really stop thinking I'm going to actually get any of these
girls I fall for and then lose for one reason or another.

This time I got a female doctor with a pretty smile. The
male docs I've had in the past have all been drug dealers.
I was hoping some of that motherly tendancey would rub off.
Maybe it will. We talked about my tiredness and she noticed
i have humongous tonsils, which aside from being really
cool, also obstruct airways during sleep leading to sleep
apenia. Long story short, I might be going in to a sleep
study and having them monitor me and whatever. Sounds like
my kind of job. I think I have kicking problems and even
though I don't snore, that sensation of falling you get
sometimes that wakes you up, that's sleep apenia. It means
you were suffocating. It's what SIDS babies die of, cause
their brain can't do that yet. Wake up. So I might be
waking up several times during the night and that could be
why I'm not getting rest. But the bloodwork comes back,
baring no STDs I can apply for the sleep treatment and
perhaps feel better by the start of the summer.




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