ErykahKayne

My Daily Bread
2004-03-07 12:49:56 (UTC)

conclusions..random thoughts and ish

its' 1:33 from what my computer is telling me, and i just
woke up. well..about 30,minutes ago. i think today i'm
going to tell my mom that i ain't got no job..when she get
bacc from church. i shoulda went today..that was one of my
new
year's resolutions..to go at least once a month. my blacc
ass ain't went YET! feel so bad too..but i'll get into that
later..

yeah..i think i'ma gon' head and tell her. hope the wrath
isn't too bad..cuzz then i'll get mad myself and say some
stuff that i probably shouldn't say and we'll be
arguing..which is something i have no use for today. i
don't wanna argue..i want some motherly
support..hehehehe..well i'm laughing..but i do. i mean
damn..before u tell me what to do u should say.."well i
know u feel bad enough already soo..." then blayzah
blah..ya know. and MissThelma is good about that shit. but
that's my mama..love her to death.

Random thought: i ain't even smoke today when i woke up..i
just rolled over and came downstairs..wow. now i think i
need to though..oh lord! speaking of smoking..i have come
to the conclusion that my cigarette smoking has to be cut
to the BARE minimum. what bought me to this conclusion? 1)
Newports done went up to 4.95 a pacc. in the states they
EVEN higher. 2)Friday in the club i smoked a WHOLE paccc!
which i DID NOT mean to do. but i was rollin so i wanted to
keep smokin..3) for the simple fact that i REFUSE To spend
damn near 5dollars on something that i REALLY don't need in
the first place.

shit, for 5dollars i rather buy some bud anyway. so yeah..i
think i'ma have to go head and quit for good. and the thing
is, i don't even buy them alot. usually 1pacc lasts me for
about a week or 2. sometimes even longer. so i wasn't
buying them all that much. but for 4.95 and lasting a
day..nah i can't do it. am i bein cheap? but shit, for damn
near 5 dollars i won't even wanna smoke nomore. i'll be
savin them bitches for months..rationing til i can't nomore
dammit. but anyway, it's a bad habit and i dont' know what
the hell made me think i could keep it up. furthermore, why
did i wait a whole 19 yrs to start? people usually start
around 11 or 12 from what i've read. sometimes even
younger..i'm definitely not the average cig smoker. around
that time i was smokin weed anyway..who needs those when u
can get high while u smoke at the SAME TIME! a twofer..lmao
(twofer..that sounded funny) anyway, enuff about damn
cigarettes the bottom line is i'ma have to either quit
altogether..or let one pacc last me for damn near a month
which i KNOW ain't gon happen..so quitting is the only
option right? i think so..and i dont' think it'll be
hard..i been smokin for 8months, but i always prefer the
green over anything..so as long as i got that, i'm good.
agreed.

anywho..nothing else really to write about..until the "the
talk" with my mom i guess..maybe not even then, we'll see.
she might surprise me. smooches




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