McKaY

McKayism: Everything, Anything & Nothing
2004-03-07 05:57:59 (UTC)

hopelessness

as if like a lot had happened during this week.

must've been my fluctuating mood swings that made it feel
this way.

after reading the stats abt poverty
after learning abt sociology great theorists
after experiencing class difference
after finishing the book, broken cord
everything seems so hopeless.

i also realize that if i am to go into human service like
i planned, i will have to make a lot of sacrifices, go
against a lot of people to bring about social changes,
maybe even cry myself to sleep every single night for the
rest of my career. right now, i just don't care abt
myself. i don't care if i'm going to work in the
frontline or even go straight to so called "background," n
hate every min of work, all i want is just changes n i
want them now. it just kills me so much that i know ppl r
suffering all over the places n i'm pretty damn sure there
can be more things done but ppl r just not doing it.

hate to say it, but there're only so much i can do.

n not to be a disliker or anything, i just think a lot of
ppl r just so selfish n too worry abt themselves that they
don't realize what's the priority in the world. it's not
only abt family, school, career, or love. it's also abt
the world you live in n how ppl r suffering while you're
worrying abt something totally will not kill you.

what i'm thinking is totally naive but as long as i
believe, i will make it happen.




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