krazymccasey

KrAzY mEsSeD uP mE
2004-03-03 22:54:24 (UTC)

Zachary...the one and only....

If you read my entry titled "life sux ass", I mentioned a
guy named Zachary
aka zak. I met him back in September when i became friends
with Maria, his little sister. As soon as I saw him, I new
I was in love (if you dont like corny love stuff, i suggest
u stop reading now). He was tall, with the most beautiful
blue eyes, and amazing smile. My heart just sank. He was so
nice too, and funny. Hes a complete idiot, but i mean it in
a good way. Then, after i left Marias house, and we all
hung out, I couldnt stop thinking about him. I felt like I
was in heaven, and honestly, to this day, I still do. My
heart was also sort of broken at the same time though too,
because I felt a great guy like that, would never like me.
I had no hope. But Maria,my best friend Stephanie, and my
step-sister, all interigated him, and soon found out that
he liked me too. But for some strange reason, he didnt want
me to know, so he made everyone promise not to tell me, but
u kno that they all did anyways. LOL! Well, one day, after
one of my P.A.N.D.A meetings at school, I was supposed to
walk home with my step sister, but was never told that, so
i didnt. I am soooooooo mad at my dad for not telling me.
Ok, Caitlyn and Zak had this big thing planned out that
day. This is what was supposed to happen: when i got to the
high school, i was supposed to meet Caitlyn there, and i
was supposed to be all suprised because Zak was there, then
he was going to ask me out!! BUT U KNO WHAT HAPPEND!!!????
I walked home with my other step sister instead, because i
was told by my lovely father that i was supposed to walk
home with jill. BUT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE CAITLYN!!!
GRRRR!! Well, after that, we see each other occasionally,
when I go over Maria's and stuff, but thats all. Im still
completly, and utterly in love with him. But for some
reason, now hes all shy, and is afraid to talk to me. I
dont know why though. But he still likes me. I still can
never stop thinking about him, and it drives me nuts. I
have had crushes on tons and tons of guys, but ive never
felt like this. Its a feeling I cant explain, one that
makes u feel like your flying....I love it, and I never
want it to go away. If i could pick one person to spend the
rest of my life with, It would be him. Hes the boy of my
dreams and always will be, no matter what happens. Im in
love, and i know it. I wrote him a 4 page note, telling him
exactly how much I like him. My step sis is supposed to
give it to him, but she keeps forgetting. I never beleived
in love at first sight until I looked at him, then i
believed. Hes the one. i kno it. But i dont think hes to
happy with me right now because, i went out with Bronson.
When i was on the phone with Maria, She insisted on telling
him, so she did and he just started screaming. all you
heard was ""
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGG
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!"" and it was really loud. That made me
feel like shit, and plus i knew i made a mistake, because i
didnt really even like Bronson, and i knew i loved zak more
than anything. So, i have some fixing to do. I make bad
mistakes. So thats the deal with Zak. Now u kno.




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