Hakerz338

Grass is Greener on the Other Side
2004-03-01 23:44:45 (UTC)

Faded away like the color in a blue sky

Well, i guess the past two days have kinda worried me a
little. LSR, has seemed like out of it Sat, and looked a
lot better Sun, but still something seemed off. I felt like
she was losing interest in me, falling out ya know? Now i
find out she's sick. So i dunno. Is that supposed to make
me feel better? MAybe that's why? She's sick, that really
blows. I mean jeez. I feel like crap anyways. I felt there
was something wrong, off, looking into her eyes and stuff.
That glow was gone, something was wrong. I just didn't ask,
cuz I'm a loser, i just thought she was tired or not...I
don't know. The thing is i can't really talk with any guys
about this, because they'd be like yea she's lost interest.
I don't know. Can i blame her? It's not like i'm always
there for her. It's not like i support her. It's not like
i've given her the attention she needs. It's not like i
know what i'm doing in any of this. It's not like... If
only things were different. If only i wasn't the guy i am.
All day i was thinkin about her, and her I love nerds
shirt, and trying to figure out what i did to fuck things
up. I've been feeling like crap all of last week, and i
guess, it really hasn't helped. Only time i forgot about it
was when i saw her, and that felt great seeing her but,
like i said something seemed off. Today's not even cool. I
find out I'll be looking for a new job. Then there are like
a few new bills and i might not be able to pay em right
away. I mean I've just been so worried about home matters,
school, and us. Sigh...NONE of MY FRIENDS believed in us,
and some still don't believe. Thanks for the ones that do.
School starts next week, and life's goin to take a spin.
These are the thoughts pulsing threw my head. THESE ARE THE
THOUGHTS YOU'LL NEVER FUCKING KNOW. THIS IS MY SUICIDE. I
lack the confidence to drive me. I show the world, what
they wanna see. Never let them see you sweat, never let
them see you on your knees. Don't break apart. Die inside
before you die there.


SHUT THE WORLD WHEN IT DOESN'T OPEN THE DOORS
SHUT THE WORLD WHEN IT ALL LOOKS DOWN
FUCK THE THINGS THAT AREN'T COMING OUT
FORGET THE WORDS THAT CAME ALL WRONG
LET THE BLOOD RUSH OUT
FIGHT THE WORLD WHEN IT COMES AT YOU
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NO MORE
LET THE ANGER PULSATE THREW
NOT GOIN TO LET YOU SEE ME LIKE THIS
NOT GOIN TO LET YOU HEAR ME LIKE THIS
FORGET
FORGET
FORGET THIS
FORGET ALL THAT MATTERS
AND DIE LIKE THEM ALL

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L8r Dayz
6:41 PM




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