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chronicallytrapt
2004-02-20 03:59:40 (UTC)

officially 17

yeppers, my b-day was yesterday. the big 1-7...lol....well
u could call it that. all it really is is a milestone
saying i've survived one year with my license, but i dont'
have the bragging rights yet to say "hey, i can go to a
strip club, buy cigarettes (ewww...) get a tatoo...FINALLY
get my tounge ring...and vote in the next election." but
no, i'm not there yet. how patheticly aware of the fact
that i'm not a legal adult is it when instead of "happy b-
day to me" i put "ONE MORE YEAR!!!!" in my planner. lol.
ne wayz, my day was ok. i got wished a happy b-day which
always makes me feel good. i got money and cards cause
what the hell else do u buy a 17 yr old??? then i even got
the night off work and had amber make me a really cool DQ
cake (*** yummers...) and then i hung out with my friend
adam who i haven't seen in a long time, and two of his
friends. the only down side to the evening was josh
calling me twice and then adam trying to kiss me. the
really down side was i really wanted adam to kiss me. but
being the "good" girl that i am, i said no...i can't do
that when i have a guy who thinks i'm madley in love with
him. that's ok tho, cause i still lov adam and i think
he'll forgive me.

the shitty ass break down point came today when i saw sam
(josh's sister) and she told me that not only had he
bought me something for my b-day but it was a $50 gift
certificate to barnes&noble. alright...anyone who knows me
of knows of me would tell u that this would normally
qualify u as one of my top choices for a life partner but
being that it was josh and i was trying to find a
definitive way to end our "relationship" i spazed out and
was pissed the rest of the day. i got off work at 6 and
went to his house to have a chat with him. he seemed to
take it pretty well when i explain (some of) my feelings
to him. i'm not sure he comprehended everything i was
saying but i got the message accross...he still wanted to
know if i would call him...when i said i didn't know he
said, "well, then i better give you your b-day present
now..." i was like...ahhh...what???????? he gave me a card
and inside was, just as sam had said, a $50 certificiate
to BARNES AND NOBLE!!!!!!! i tried to give it back. i told
him i couldn't take it. when he refused i told him i was
gonna give it to sam at school...we spent 15 min arguing
over it. i ended up leaving with it stuffed in my back
pocket...i think i will just mail it back to him (can u
refund gift cards???) it's not that i wouldnt love to
spend fifty dollars at b&n but....that's just WAY TOO
EXTRAVAGANT....I MEAN IT!!!!!! errr. damn guys. why do
they have to do shit like that. even my best friends dont
spend fifty dollars on me for my b-day. that's obscene,
not to mention absurd...HONESTLY!!!!!! ne wayz, i gotta
run. as much as i hate algebra, it's calling my name. but
a little cheer for me before i go:

I TOLD JOSH! I TOLD JOSH! I TOLD JOSH! I TOLD JOSH !!!!!!!!

talk to ya soon. cya




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