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Peggy
2004-02-17 23:18:35 (UTC)

The circle of my life...

Tuesday. What more can be said? Well, let's just start by me
repeating some of the things that people have told me before. "You
are an asshole, and need to die." Yes, I am an asshole. I'm not
proud of it, and I never will be. Just thought I should point it out
because it's true, and I wanted to give you a warning. But yea, on
to the never ending circle that is my life.

Some people can do all the right things in life. Say the perfect
things at the right time, do the nicest things for those in need, or
just basically be there. Me, not even close to any of those. I never
seem to say the right thing. And when I do something to seem nice,
I just seem like some dumbass idiot, which isn't too far from the
truth. And I don't think I've ever been there for anyone when they've
needed my help. I just turn my back and fall hoping they will catch
me instead of me trying to catch them when they fall. When
someone is in need, I just pretend I didn't know, and just lay my
problems down upon them. This has caused me not one, but
perhaps two relationships. I just act before I think, and with my
instinct, that's not a good idea. But yea, enough about my shitty ass
decisions. We all know I make stupid ones. Well, that's the circle of
my life. Exciting huh? And I don't know if anyone reads this, and I
doubt the people this refers to do either. But just in case, Melissa, I
never meant to hurt you. I'm just stupid and I didn't realize what I
had when I had it. But I hear you have a boyfriend, a really great
one as it sounds, and I wish nothing but the best for you. I know
sorry will never make up for any of the things I did, but I am sorry. I
just wish I could make things better, which I can't, and never will be
able to do. I just wanted you to know I'm sorry.

And to all those and any others that I have offended, I'm sorry.
Especially to Melissa's friends for having to put up with me.
Melissa should be proud she has as good of friends as you all are.




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