forever 17

silent wishes
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2004-02-17 04:38:56 (UTC)

hmm...Victoria's Secret...

if you havent tried it yet you should go and torture one
of your friends with this thought. its extremely fun.
unless of course you're a guy, then that might pose a few
problems.
but yea. when i was little i would play make believe. i
had it in my mind that if i couldnt see them then they
couldnt see me, and this made me go outside and run around
the edge of my woods, playing in ditches and building
swings and bridges and creating my own little worlds, in
which i could fly. (before long, i'm going to fly. i know a
bridge that has a really pretty overlook. or maybe i
imagined that...in any event, there's a magical bridge
somewhere than i intend to fly from.) i remember when i'd
go to play in my own little relms of schitzophrenia, or
imagination, which ever, i would climb up on vines and
rotten ropes and stuff around in my woods and i'd swing on
them and jump off into a big patch of weeds and brush and
such and for a breif second i could fly. because when
you're little you think you'll live forver and everything
is yours for the taking and there's so much for you to
create and imagine and you can do anything you want and go
where ever you want, so long as you're back by supper of
course. i love that feeling. i miss it soo much. there's so
much that i would give to be able to be little again. its
funny tho, because when i was little all my friends would
pretend to be teenagers and housewives and working men and
they couldnt wait to grow up. ha. i never wanted to leave
my lands of magic and flying. and now that i've actually
grown up, i wish so much to be little again. i'm looking
into this role-playing game my boyfriend has been telling
me about. its seems perfect. you get to create a character
and bring it to life and live it. and that's the thing, its
not a computer game or a video game, its real. that's what
makes it awesome. i hope sooo bad my owners will let me
go, 'cause there's an event on my birthday, and that would
be THE perfect 16th birthday present. there's no use in
getting me a car because i waited 2 months after my
birthday to ever take my test for my license, so it'll be
june before i can drive. but yes. to let me go and be
little again and play pretend and be magic for a weekend
would be the perfect thing. kind of ironic too, because 16
is when yoy finally become almost grown, and here i go,
taking off in the completely wrong direction. IT RULES!!!!
i've got to come up with something that they cant say no
to...i'll work on that.
when it gets warmer, probably during the summer so i can
be equipped with a car, i'm going to the lake and i'm going
to make me another world, one all my own. one that i can
create and destroy at will, tho i dont think there'll be
any destroying any time soon. there's enough of that around
here already. but yea, i'm still living on my little
euphoric feeling of childism, so i'm not gonna let it get
me down tonight. besides, i've got the radio on and 99x
always plays pretty good music at night, so i'm good 'til i
pass out from being tired.

forever 17


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