doobiedoo352

Proud of Life...
2004-02-16 04:06:02 (UTC)

Umm... Im not sure.

Im having a bit of mixed feelings right now. Im not
sure whether I should feel good or bad. I mean, yea I still
miss christi, but she doesent miss me, and I know that, so
why do I still miss her? My heart stops everytime I even
see her, cause I know that I cant go up to her and talk to
her anymore without wanting to do more than that. So I just
dont bother. I would just end up getting bitch slapped or
maybe something worse. I need to get over this somehow. Its
making my life misserable, and I want it to stop. I hate it
so bad. I really do. Oh what the hell am I writing about
this shit for?! This is fucking pothetic! I need to stop
being such a fucking softy. This is downright pothetic. I
think one of my friends was right. I need to get laid. Ive
been everywhere except home plate. Maybe that would relax
my love life a little bit more. Damn, you know what? These
journals are G-R-E-A-T for release of expression! They
really are. Im gonna have this journal for a looooong time!
=)




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