justme

tired
2004-02-12 17:08:43 (UTC)

same *(hit different day

I'm feeling kinda depressed, my marriage is headed down
the wrong path, and I am powerless to do anything
about...the truth be told it would probably be an
improvement to my life it was over, Im just to chicken
shit to call it quits on my own accord.

my twenty something daughter and grand child has moved
back into the house and I am ashamed to admit that I wish
they werent there. But hey what else is family for?????

I realize that things in life could be much worse, but
damn i'm tired of being unhappy............again to
chicken shit to do anything about it....I guess if I was
honest with my self I would admit to myself and you that
the reason for my hesitance is that I fear that there is
not anyone else out there for me, and sometimes something
is better than nothing. I know my wife wouldnt have any
problems finding someone new, heck to the best of mu
knowledge she has already found someone else at least
twice.

truth be told I have been sleeping with someone for almost
9 months now, it started out as revenge, but its kinda
old....really enjoy the sex, but the guilt sucks, really
dont care the person, again to chicken shit to end it and
move on

I'm done. I feel slightly better, wonder how long that
will last

peace




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