Lady Skiier

Finding ME-mo
2004-02-11 04:01:14 (UTC)

Back in the Game

I'm better now, much better, fantasitic actually.
I got myself out of bed today for the first time in like
48 hours. I've been stuck in bed, feeling sorry for
myself, playing on my computer, watching movies, eating,
doing anything to distract myself.
But i got out of bed today around 3pm and i went for a
long walk, i had coffee and read a book and then walked
some more. I listened to B.B. and Eric for inspiration and
when i got back home I decided things weren't going to be
the same. I shed a few tears and I put my ass in gear. I
started cleaning my room. I called David to let him know
about the party. I called Alex and talked with her for a
long time, she was very helpful. And then I did the
boldest thing, i called Martin. Who I haven't talked to
since early December. And he sounded pretty glad to hear
from me. The best part is I don't care if he doesn't call
back, and I don't care if he doesn't come to the party.
I'm fine on my own and I'm stong.
I don't want to need Dustin, or anyone. I'd like to meet
someone or some people, but I don't need to. What i need
to do is keep my life in order. I need to keep my room
tidy and study for my classes. And when I have time I need
to start getting back in shape, but I'm going to take it
easy on myself or eles i'll just work myself into a big
mess again.
I'm back in the game!!!!
I'm ready for it, bring it!
Bring on life.
Actually, you know what, Life, here I come.




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