jerseychica04

too much drama to keep to myself...
2004-02-11 00:23:57 (UTC)

more poetry...

fingertips graze my stomach, exploring.
finding new places to caress, stroke, tease.
my whole body tenses as he reaches
the small of my bare back.
freckles, scars, stretch marks...all gone
my tanned skin is his for admiration
to be worked like a canvas.
the only sound our quickening breaths
as his hands wander, investigate
find somewhere else to make me moan.
goosebumps travel up my arms and legs
as he so gently makes his way toward my face.
now my lips, my entire body
silently call for him
to get closer than we did last time
a collision course for runaway emotions
that can't, won't ever stop.
i could die from that look in his eyes.


as i smoke another cigarette,
i gather my thoughts.
assemble some version
of what just happened
my heart a bloody pulp
barely beating in my chest
i'll never trade in the good times
and probably not the bad ones either
i'll hold on to them dearly
just in case you come crawling back someday
i'll throw them in your face
the way you threw me away
and make you understand
how payback really is a bitch.


nothing
then
pain
the hurt of
you inside me
wait...
i never said yes
you never gave me
the chance to say
no
you stole that from me
you stole more from me
than you'll ever know
the rest of my life
in your hands
because you couldn't wait
for yes


eyes struggle to focus as 3:45 glares pierces
through it all i was here
there can be no hope for
survival of the fittest you were
you laughing smiling at
4 i will sleep
with you again never
will myself to say no
drama no lies at all
a dream only
one who does this
hurt you like this
game is over
rated r for ridiculousness


i try to figure out
which arm is mine
limbs entangled in a
passionate embrace
holding on for life
like if he let's go
i might
die.
legs wrapped in each other
entwined forever
as we lie here
discovering everything
we had missed the night before
trying to get closer
than the time before.


you stole my heart that
once belonged to someone else
released me from one prison
only to be bound and gagged
locked away
in your eyes.
with one look
one glance across the room
knocked speechless
senseless
as my heart fell into your hands
destined to do your bidding
our for the count
rendered helpless
to those baby blues
forever.


the way he looks at me
when he's fucking me
makes me feel like a
goddess and a porn star
at the same time


the tears fall
spread into trails on my cheeks
my shirt
my pillow
another lonely night without you
you said forever
doesn't tonight count?

cold air
windows fogged
wondering
how?
why again?
you are a
repeat offender
on my list
of conquests
or am i the one
being defeated?
but how can i
say no
to those
lips
eyes
face
hands
that all scream
yes?
who all beg
please?
who cry
more?




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