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ESPO'S LIFE
2004-02-07 10:17:47 (UTC)

February 7, 2004 A Confused Night

It's been a few days since i have last written any thing
down. Its been a long week at work but it was a good week
none the less. It was busy as usuall considering fisrt
watch doesnt do a damn thing. I felt i got alot dont
however. Although i got to see alot of true colors shine
out in the people in my office. They think i am some sort
of psycho as of late thinking i got into this bullshit rage
if i get upset which is a crock. They have no idea about
me and dont even know me at all they have no idea who i
really am. Also i dont fit in any where there for chirst
sake i had my birthday a day after marissas and not even
one fuckin person wished me a happy birthday there, guess i
finally found out how shallow they are after all. Oh well
i had a good night back then none the less.

I talked to monica tonight and im kinda fusterated cause my
one chance to go see her was this weekend and now i cant
cause she made plans and thought i was working, it was all
a mix up. Im fusterated cause i would of loved to see her
but there will be another day. However, i sent her a dozen
roses tonight and i pray to god she likes them and they go
over well with her. I still really like her and believe it
or not with all of the shit that happened that weekend my
feelings havent changed much, my mindset has but not my
feelings. Ill just see what a happens in the next few
weeks.

I did have a fun night on my weekend. I went out with a
few of the boys and had a blast. We hit up the thirsty fox
i spent a bit of money but it felt good to be with a
different crowd. Me and kurt got to talk for a bit tonight
and connect more then we ever have i gotta start hanging
out with him more often me and him just work on the same
level when it comes to having a good time and i hope more
of them lie ahead. Plus i have one more day of my weekend
to enjoy hope it goes well. They are all going to the
autoshow tomorrow but i am passing tomorrow to go thursday
with my bro. Its that one time we can just be me and him
and have a good time plus catch up on alot of things
considering he moved out about a month ago. I cherish
these momenents alot and enjoy being the brothers that we
are. I also cant believe his wedding is only a month away
and it is going to be a great one for the ages things are
forming up nicely and going good, i cant wait.

I am still confused alot about the phone call from Monica
tonight and i dunno what to think at this point. But its
been fun night filled with alot of laughs and a good amount
of booze. But its 4:16 AM my mood is relaxed at this point
but i am but confused with a few things, although i always
have things on my mind. Im ready for a good end to a busy
week and a return to my routine on sunday.




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