vilverin

red sky at night shepherds delight, red
2004-02-05 21:56:33 (UTC)

why does this all happen to me (song - look at yourself)

feeling - baaad
listening to - understatement by new found glory

argh i cant believe it. a whole month gone down the
drain.. i cut again last night .... bad argh this is sooo
not good. i felt sooo fucked up last night. agh this time
my friend are not - i repeat are NOT going to find my
diary. i had 100 entries....o well i spose it happens to
lots of people. argh. i hate myself at the moment. i cant
belive.. i dunno i just cant explain. ive blocked like
everyone on my msn list who i know in real life cos i just
dont want to talk to them. i think amanda and elin are
online atm... but yeah.... at skool i have to act all
normal. i can put up a good front if i want to but my
feelings sometimes slip out. shit i bothered about pe with
my arms n all, how much longer will i be able to wear a
jumper for, and then on sunday i have a practise d of e.
im gunna wear a long sleeved top - deff and hope i say
HOPE *begging here* that it isnt too hot.
i wrote this song last night, there is a tune aswell but i
dont really know how to show that on here.

look at yourself

you look at me
and what do you see
somebody different
from the girl i am

you look at me
and stare in wonder
i warn you now
this is not me you see

so go and take a good look at yourself
dont you ever wonder who's beneath the surface
go and take a good look at yourself
dont tell me you dont ever wonder at all

i look at you
and see right through
that fragile cover
hiding you away

so go and take a good look at yourself
dont you ever wonder who's beneath the surface
go and take a good look at yourself
dont tell me you dont ever wonder...

Im calling out
to you my friend
i tell you this
wont ever end
not unless
you see beneath
the surface...

so go and take a good look at yourself
dont you ever wonder who's beneath the surface
i went and took a good look at myself
guess what
i found the true me
go and take a good look at yourself

there may be some adjustments made at some point, but im
happy with that for now, the tune may be changed a little
though. it just kinda popped into ma head as things do,
and amazingly it aint that depressing! o yeah n i just
made up the name right now from part of the chorus.

storme




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