ComForTably NUmB

RAChEL's LiFe in A ShoRt PerSpeCtiVe
2004-02-05 17:02:25 (UTC)

Weekend

Well, this weekend, was lets say another learning
expiernce....on friday, i woke up, and i was home alone
cuz my mom was at work, and Step-dad was somewhere, i
uno...anywayz, so i wake up, go online, talk to my best
friend, i uno, talk to my boyfriend, he was in West
Oakland at the time...and we were talking, i was getting a
lil jealous like wondering where he was, even tho i know
he would NEVER EVER cheat on me, cuz hes HELLLLA against
it..n yah, but i uno, i was still HELA curious...so yah, i
get off the phone with him, but yah i uno i was sorta
depressed, and i had been talking bout juss 'what if i
really juss ended it' n things like that, and i uno..i got
into a deep ass depression...jus ssad music, juss writing
hella thoughts botu dying any iuno, i ended up take 32
pills, advil, anti depressents, umm somemore stuff... and
i was REALLY dizzy and kept blacking out..so i told my
best friend what i had done, and she was really scared for
my life, so she was like "im calling your mom and 911" and
i was so mad i juss thought to take somemore pills and
actualyl end it, but then i couldnt cuz of her and my
boyfriend..so i cut, REALLY REALLY bad...and i meen it was
like dripping around my arm n on the ground.n well i ended
up calling 1800suicide,for my best friend.. and telling
them what had happened., so as im on the fone with some
lady, i hung up..cuz she was helal making me mad, and then
she calls back my house! so then yah i hang up on her, and
all of a sudden i look out my window and theres 1 fire
truck 1 ambulanceand 2 police cars..it sucked. i went back
to herrick. im out now, and its Thursday today...well gota
go be bak later




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