Katie

Use Your Turn Signal
2004-02-04 22:24:30 (UTC)

another sucky day

i just had my summer decided for me. if i want to get into
the J-school, i have to retake a Statistics class that i
did poorly in the first time around, and i'll have to do it
this summer. today blows. it really does. i don't think
i'll get to sit down again until 11 o'clock tonight. i
don't see people anymore. and my summer.... i don't want in-
state tuition! i don't want a fucking Missouri driver's
license and a waitressing job or whatever i would be doing
in order to save myself some money. i don't care about
money, really. i want to be close to the city (MY city),
close to the lake (THE lake), and most of all i want to be
with my friends. i want to explore Chicago with them, go to
a Cubs game and the Art Museum, and street concerts on
those beautiful summer nights that we have. i can picture
it now, and it sucks that i never appreciated it as much as
i should have. and now that i do appreciate it i can't have
it anymore. maybe it sucks to say this, and i'm sure i'd
miss him like have before, but i could easily trade being
five hours away from my boyfriend for being able to spend
one of those incredible summers with my best friends, the
friends that i don't really get to see anymore. Geoff
always reminds me that we never really think of a summer as
incredible until after it's gone and we're back to the
grind. damnit. i have to go to work. i have to cry,
actually, for a good long time. and that's the other thing
that sucks- i can't do it. there's not a time or place
that's any good. well, i'm off to do dishes and eat free
food (my one consolation), and maybe after i sleep tonight
i'll be better.
-Katie-




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