lester

connected meanderings
2004-02-03 14:30:37 (UTC)

redheads conversing dream

Was distressed in the night, envisioning obligations that
I'm not able to make, or things I've not done that I
should have; I particularly am reacting to a message from
PSJ whom I'm seeing in INdia in a few days. I think I
royally screwed up a joint venture.

The dream: I was in a conference setting by myself and
realized that colleagues from years ago, when I was in
training, were against the wall. He (AT) shared an office
and acquired some sculptures that he still possesses
(tells me about when I occasionally see him on a trip).
During that period I also knew PP who worked as a lab
assistant for the person running the lab I was in (I
didn't directly answer to him). Both PP and AT were
redheaded, got together, AT divorced his wife, and they
married. I stayed overnight with them once some years ago
in Providence, Rhode Island. They now live on the west
coast. In the dream they are conversing in low tones,
intimate, and made me realize that I didn't have
comparable intimacy with anyone now. I thought of going
over to talk to them (they hadn't seen me), but then
realized that I was naked and it would be embarrassing
although I seemed ok on such nakedness otherwise. A note
on PP is that she was very interested in a short research
project that I started but didn't have the nerve to
conclude, a pattern in my life, and the problem really
with PSJ situation. Also I found her attractive back then
(and since) but was otherwise attached then. Didn't even
think of having an affair, though I did with other women
of the time.




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