grnidangel

Kyla's thoughts
2004-02-01 20:01:15 (UTC)

SUPERBOWL!!!! and thinking of happier times

The Pats are soooooooooooooo going to win :] lol. The only
time I will ever be excited about any sport...Going to
scott and marys room to watch the game with my heathbah
maybe dan...i dunno if he likes sports....hmmm anyway my
Sabin is the cutiest lil thing in the entire world. He
came to say goodbye to me this morning when i was leaving
for work. Just what I needed. Work wasn't bad today at
all. Nice and slow and I was out front so I wasn't getting
splattered with burger juice and oh yeah ERICA"S GONE!!!
HAHAHA and she's pregnant...poor kid. But not having to
deal with her ever again is a nice little blessing. What
to know the one of the stupidest things that was said this
week? "Melissa and Kyla both have TVs in their rooms,
thats why I should have the internet in mine. What am I
supposed to do sit and stare at the walls" That was my
lovely roomate. She thinks she has sole right to the modem
and the ONE time i took it so i could transfer money in my
bank account she flips out and says how unfair it was.
She's on it every fucken god damn day. Oh yeah she says
*you can use it whenever you want* But a fat lot of good
that does me when I can't access any secure sites because
of a god damn virus that she had on her computer. Not to
mention the fact tht if she isn't on it then melissas is.
I'm lucky if i get a chance to even check my mail let
alone actually talk to people from back home or even write
in here. Oh yeah. Her point about the tv? The cable box
doesnt even work in my room. Sure I can watch movies if i
wanted to, but she also can watch movies because oh yeah
thats right her computer has a dvd player in it. Anyway
when i got home lastnight and found the cord to the fucken
ethernet riped out of my computer and my computer oh all
restarted ( i have it password protected) I said that's
it. If she wants to be a child about it and whine because
she can't go a fucken day without talking to her online
boys then she can just have it. I'm not paying for it
though. I shouldnt have to. I've used it all of 3 times
for internet and maybe watched tv one or twice and the
fact that it didn't even work in my room well that's just
another reason to not have to pay. As it is I've been
coming to heath room of just going to the nescom lab
whenever I needed to use the internet. It's just so god
damn stupid. I left the dorms to get away from fucken
childish ppl like that. Guess I would have been better off
staying. As it is if stuff like this keeps happening as
soon as Heath and the guys get an apartment, I'm out. I
don't eevn care if i break the lease. I'll deal with the
concequences. I will not deal with being treated like a
stranger in my own apartment. Oh yeah one more thing. THe
whole her inviting guys over that she's met on the
internt. Yeah. That just aint cool. I don't care if he's
the fucken pope. You don't invite someone who you met
online to your APARTMENT. MAybe after meeting in public
places for a while and he seems kosher, but god. How
stupid do you have to be? He could have been a fucken
rapist but that didn't matter she not only put her safly
on the line, but the rest of ours as well. And who knows
might still be. And this is where jona is saying to
herself something along the lines of *your only saying
that because you were raped and havent gotten over it.*
well ya know what I would rather be overly cautiouse then
go through hell like that again. She thinks she can *fix*
this Unfortuanatly untill she grows up and ralizes that
the world does NOT revolve around jona and that there is
actually a world outside of the internt, it won't be
fixed. While I'm at it. This dishes. How hard is it to do
the fucken dishes? The first couple of times after they
piled up I did them and then was annoyed that i was the
only one doing them, then melissa did them, then she did
them again. BUt not once did jona lifet a fucken finger.
So i just resorted to doing my own dishes and fuck the
rest. And what do you know they piled up. The one time i
saw her do them was when internet guy was coming over and
even then she only did about half of them IF that. I don't
know why she thinks she's so special. seriously. I'm
busting my ass to make up the money that I lost from
getting pneumonia, unfortuantly with pneumonia you can't
really be doing that. My chest still hurts everyday. I'm
constantly out of breath and tired as hell, but i still
get up early and go to work. I try to put on a happy face
so as to not upset the almighty. But in doing that I'm
making myself worse. I know that. It's gotten to the point
where If i continue on like this I'm not even going to be
able to handle school and it's only the 3rd week. If it
werent for heath i would have already told them That i
just coudnlt do this semster and I'd be back at home
working at the daycare part time and getting the propery
rest and relaxation that I need. I should have never come
back up. I should have stayed at home like teh doctors
wanted me to. I should have just listened to my gut intead
of others.




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