Meelve

Another day
2004-02-01 13:37:16 (UTC)

Need to stop daydreaming

Now as mid terms are begining, the stress seems so weird,
people are all worried about school and then they end up
just relaxing and doing nothing all night. I guess it's a
good thing. I'm really hoping I get my ass in gear, and
get on top of things before my exams so that I do well.
To add to things, charlie is coming up this weekend, and
staying her sunday night, because he is driving his
roomate up to guelph. I don't know if it's good or bad
though cause I have a mid term on monday, and tuesday, but
I am planning on studying throughout the week, so
hopefully it wount be to bad. Things between us are so
weird again. I hate how it's always like we get so close
when we spend time together and the next couple of weeks
are great, then one of us gets busy and things become
awkward again. Im suposed to be getting over him I know,
but it is really hard when there is no one to replace him
with, no one to switch your attention to. Yes I know I'm
suposed to be concentrating on school, but I just miss
having someone around. I really wish I still had that, SO
BADLY. But really why do I want that. School is going to
get in the way, and I live to far from any of the boys
that I like, because this city is full of girls, and city
boys, and the country boys are just not all there, so I'm
lost. I want be married and having kids, not sitting here
at school. But why do I want that so much, I'm sure it's
not the greatest, and when I get there I will want
something else. There was a time I wanted to be in
University so badly, but now it different. I guess things
are never what you percieve them to be. I really wish
they were though. It would make life alot easier.




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