little goth gurl

without wings, i fall
2004-01-29 19:40:06 (UTC)

Screaming On The Inside

Yeah...I sit here, back at the library and wonder. How
long would I have to scream for someone to notice?
Probably here not long since I'm in a library,
shhh....lol. But yeah I just ponder that a lot because I
mean there are so many times that I just want to scream
and then cry and then run into Bill's arms and tell him
every reason why I hurt, tell him why I cry, tell him why
I slice apart my arms. Meh, he probably already knows a
lot of it, I'm not good at keeping secrets from him. I
can't lie to him, its a problem I have, I look into his
eyes and all I can do is be truthful because he just means
the world to me. Him being with me is my deciding fate
between life and death. Man I'm so needy. Yeah, so just
for the record 3 times since last night. No I am not
telling anyone what that's about but I needed to write it
in here because it makes me so angry. three fucking times,
once this morning too. I feel so lost, especially since I
know its not right. Why does it have to happen to me???
Man it sucks. I need a hug...lol :D I'm going to go read a
book because sitting here typing this is making me
naseous. lol. or that could just be my annoying twins
kicking me in the stomach. bastards. lol. naw I love them.
annoying, but I love em...lol.




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