lovelylust

PEOPLE?????
2004-01-29 03:16:51 (UTC)

Jan. 28

okay so its been a long time since ive been single. i mean
i was with jerrod for almost 2 years and when you think
about it, that really is quite some time to spend with just
ONE person. but since yesterday ive been single, alone,
all by myself, and quite frankly i dont know what to do. i
rusty on all those things like flirting, because i never
really had to flirt unless it was sexual or anything, but
now that im fair game again, i have to change MY game.

as badly as i want to just run back into jerrods arms,
thats not possible, because he doesnt want me back, and i
dont even know what i did. he says the usual, that we just
need some time apart and everything will be okay. he wants
me to wait on my ass for him for 3 months so that he
can "explore what he has missed" but i dont know if i want
to do that. i mean i am 16, a junior, and i go to a party
school. thats not exactly the best combo if you ask me.
thats like putting a kid in a toy store and saying :okay
hunny, just get whatever you want at no cost"

i just dont know what to do, i feel so helpless and so
alone and so vounerable. i need a hug :(




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