kloolisspryncess

*UnDeCiDeD fEeLiNgZ*
2004-01-28 23:01:46 (UTC)

*SnOw DaYz!*

01.28.03 5:45 PM

dude, this is the third snow day *in a row* for Washington
Local. :-D that's awesome, right? but 2morrow we'll prolly
go 2 school, no delays or nothing. and that sux. LoL i
don't wanna hafta get up early and stay up.

speaking of.. since we started off as a 2 hour delay, JR
came over at like 6:45.. and we were upstairs watching TV
for the longest time. at like.. idk.. 10 or something we
came down to my room, and fell asleep til like noon..
well, i was on and off sleeping.. i don't know how much he
slept. it was cute.
i love him

DUDE. we were talking on the phone last night, and i told
him that i already got his Valentine's Day gift... so then
he went off on this whole thing about surprises for
Valentine's Day, my birthday, AND turnabout.. im like..
whoa.. LoL but he won't tell me anything about it! :( and
thats no fair. LoL actually, in all reality, its
completely 100% fair, but in my world, its not fair at
all. LoL

and he said something, like, yessirday or something.. and
it got to me. like, not that i mad about it or anything..
but it made me think. and we all know thats never good.
*LoL*
but he said that i don't tell him anything. now he said he
was just kidding about it because i wouldn't tell him what
i got him for Valentine's Day.
it made me honestly wonder if i do hold back a lot of
stuff from him. and i don't THINK i do.. but i don't know
for sure.
but i've always had a hard time talking about what i
feel.. and i think that's because around my house as a
kid, you didn't talk about how you felt. and if you show
when you're upset about something, all you got was people
taunting you and making fun of you. and if u were
frustrated about something, someone proked you until you
got totally pissed off and hit 'em.. and then you got in
trouble.. so i learned to keep everything to myself. and
now, its like having to "unlearn" what i learned as a kid.
and its hard for me. i've just recently opened up really
to like Angela and Carmen.. and me and angela have been
friends for like 4 years. and me and carmen like two and a
half.. so it takes me a while.

well, im going.. im reading this book.. and i only wanted
to check my e-male..
byez~ ttyl LyL
xoTay




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