Misty911

smashed by a giant lawn knome
2004-01-27 03:56:07 (UTC)

My Boyfriend is an Asshole, and he gets 1 more chance, an undeserved one.

u might not wanna read my diary
ur gonna tell me shit, and im gonna be in denial
and then your gonna get mad, and im gonna be mad at you,
even tho ur right

Well, everyone was right. Focused on one thing; a piece of
ass, most likely. I hate to be the first one to admit that
you all were right. Chris, you were right. At first, it was
kewl, but now, no.

---
A few minutes (about 20) after Travis logged offline, I got
a message (I was on away) from this character. I thought it
was Ryan P, from Nixa, since his brothers name is Jimmy,
and figured he was on his brothers account. I guess I was
wrong.

cheesestickjimmy (9:03:50 PM): hello
MistyOWee (9:04:01 PM): hi
MistyOWee (9:04:14 PM): who is this?
cheesestickjimmy (9:04:25 PM): ryan
MistyOWee (9:04:29 PM): oh
cheesestickjimmy (9:04:37 PM): ur christy right
MistyOWee (9:04:40 PM): yeah
cheesestickjimmy (9:05:20 PM): k ive seen ur pic on ur
profile
cheesestickjimmy (9:05:23 PM): ur hott
cheesestickjimmy (9:05:30 PM): r u single?
MistyOWee (9:05:40 PM): .. this isnt ryan from school?
cheesestickjimmy (9:06:23 PM): ryan.. last name
MistyOWee (9:06:27 PM): p?
cheesestickjimmy (9:06:44 PM): oh no
cheesestickjimmy (9:06:44 PM): i go to kickapoo
cheesestickjimmy (9:06:51 PM): are u single?
MistyOWee (9:07:02 PM): oh, how'd you get my SN
MistyOWee (9:07:05 PM): no, im not single
cheesestickjimmy (9:07:23 PM): from buddy search
MistyOWee (9:07:27 PM): oh, kewl
cheesestickjimmy (9:07:30 PM): oh didnt think u would be
single
MistyOWee (9:07:53 PM): well my boyfriend is pretty pissed
off at me right now for no reason, it really breaks my
heart too, but oh well
MistyOWee (9:08:08 PM): actually not many ppl like me so it
suprizes me when im not single
cheesestickjimmy (9:08:11 PM): yea guys can be assholes
cheesestickjimmy (9:08:40 PM): hmm thats weird
MistyOWee (9:08:42 PM): yeah, well, makes me sad =/
cheesestickjimmy (9:08:47 PM): u look hott on ur profile
MistyOWee (9:08:48 PM): why?
MistyOWee (9:08:52 PM): oh, well thanks
cheesestickjimmy (9:09:27 PM): ur b/f must be a real asshole
--
Okay. Here, I was a little suspicious. Why would he be
saying that?
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MistyOWee (9:09:34 PM): no, he isn't
cheesestickjimmy (9:09:45 PM): seems like it
--
Again suspicious, becausehe keeps pressing about how my
boyyfriend is an asshole.
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MistyOWee (9:09:48 PM): it's actually my fault, i said some
stuff that i didn't mean and i guess i scared him
MistyOWee (9:09:52 PM): i mean
MistyOWee (9:09:57 PM): well i dunno, its a long story
cheesestickjimmy (9:10:05 PM): wut did u say
cheesestickjimmy (9:10:12 PM): ive got time
cheesestickjimmy (9:10:16 PM): if u wanna tell me
MistyOWee (9:10:50 PM): alright, gimmie a sec to type it out
cheesestickjimmy (9:11:00 PM): mk
--
Yup, that gave it away. The "mk". It's Travis. It's Travis,
pretending to be someone else, so he can find out what I
really think. Even thought I knew it was him, none of the
follow is false. It's all true. I was so happy at this
point, because it showed that he cared.
--
MistyOWee (9:13:26 PM): well okay, i was talking to him,
and i messed up and i told him i was falling in love with
him.. and we haven't been together all that long, and i
shouldn't have said it b/c it was stupid, i just said it
because i really don't know what to say to explain to him
what he means to me, i mean, i havent been this happy in so
long, i was so depressed when i lived in my old town (i
just moved here not too long ago) and also not doing so
well awhile ago, but when im with him, it all just goes
away and i can be myself
MistyOWee (9:14:22 PM): you probally don't wanna hear about
it if u were looking for a girl tho.. i mean, listening to
a chick talk about her boyfriend, how fun can that be? lol
cheesestickjimmy (9:14:46 PM): lol i dunno
MistyOWee (9:14:50 PM): =/
cheesestickjimmy (9:15:03 PM): he seems like an asshole
getting mad over that
MistyOWee (9:16:30 PM): yeah, but he kinda has the right..
those words scare guys and i said it way early.. and plus
he's told me that in all his past relationships he's been
hurt, and well i can understand why he's afraid of it.. he
said he was .. i forgot.. i think afraid of love.. and i
can understand why
cheesestickjimmy (9:17:06 PM): still
MistyOWee (9:17:20 PM): nah, i don't think so
MistyOWee (9:17:39 PM): i couldn't think that about him
anyway, he seriously makes me so happy.. i mean, i didn't
think it was possible to ever be this happy
cheesestickjimmy (9:17:58 PM): id make u happy
--
Trying to get mye to forget about him... I don't think so
Travis!
--
MistyOWee (9:18:31 PM): now i just hope that he realizes
how much i care about him, b/c i dont really know what else
to do.. i've tried talking to him but i don't want him to
get annoyed, i just want him to know how much i care, and
even if he doesnt like me anymore he can still talk to me
MistyOWee (9:19:03 PM): No, not the way he does.. I haven't
even known him that long, but we have so much in common,
and it's just incredible
cheesestickjimmy (9:19:04 PM): show him how much u care
MistyOWee (9:19:11 PM): I'm trying
cheesestickjimmy (9:19:13 PM): haha give him head he will
forget about everything
cheesestickjimmy (9:19:17 PM): most guys do
--
Wait a minute.. let's take a journey back to "id make you
happy," cuz I might take you up on that offer...
--
MistyOWee (9:19:29 PM): he always tells me that :-/
MistyOWee (9:19:32 PM): I don't know
MistyOWee (9:19:36 PM): He always asks me and stuff
cheesestickjimmy (9:19:57 PM): have u done it yet?
MistyOWee (9:20:42 PM): it's not that I don't want to, but
what we have is so fragile, I don't know.. I mean, he
always bothers me about it, and if he'd just not bother me
I think it would come along.. I just want him to .. I don't
know.. I just finally feel like I have (or had, I guess)
something awesome and I don't wanna ruin it for anything
MistyOWee (9:20:59 PM): No, I haven't
cheesestickjimmy (9:21:23 PM): well hes just like every
other guy
cheesestickjimmy (9:21:28 PM): he wants it
cheesestickjimmy (9:21:36 PM): then when he gets it its not
a big deal
cheesestickjimmy (9:21:44 PM): if that makes any sense
MistyOWee (9:22:01 PM): Yeah, but that's another thing, he
want's it.. I mean, it takes the spark awya if you do all
that stuff right away
MistyOWee (9:22:28 PM): I want to give him what he wants,
but I just want us to last forever, I don't know, I just
care so muchm I'm afriad that if I do it once he'll expect
it all the time, and I don't want it to be like that
cheesestickjimmy (9:22:32 PM): actually in my past
relationships
cheesestickjimmy (9:22:38 PM): its puts the spark in it
cheesestickjimmy (9:22:45 PM): makes him want u even more
cheesestickjimmy (9:22:45 PM): thats just me though
MistyOWee (9:22:58 PM): But shouldn't he want me for me,
not b/c I give him head?
cheesestickjimmy (9:23:32 PM): he would still want u for u
cheesestickjimmy (9:23:44 PM): or else he would probably
just go out and get it from someone anywayz
--
Shallow, Travis. Shallow.
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MistyOWee (9:24:37 PM): That would break my heart... I
don't think he'd do that... alot of people here talk trash
about him and he's tried so hard to prove that he's not the
way they say (at least I think he tried, enless he's lying,
which i don't think he is)
MistyOWee (9:24:59 PM): I mean I had to look past what
everyone said and just look at him, and trust him
MistyOWee (9:25:03 PM): and I really do trust him
MistyOWee (9:25:25 PM): This is just the best thing I've
ever had and I really don't want to lose it
cheesestickjimmy (9:25:28 PM): awkward question
cheesestickjimmy (9:25:28 PM): do u swallow
cheesestickjimmy (9:25:28 PM): j/c
MistyOWee (9:25:34 PM): but I shouldn't really be burdening
you with it, you barely know me
MistyOWee (9:25:45 PM): lol, wtF?
cheesestickjimmy (9:25:53 PM): i dont care
cheesestickjimmy (9:25:57 PM): i like to help ppl
cheesestickjimmy (9:26:18 PM): lol sry bout the question
just wanted to know
MistyOWee (9:26:43 PM): lol it's okay... Yeah I duno.. I
was talking to my friend Ashley earlier and she just told
me to let it go but there is something in my heart telling
me that I shouldn't
MistyOWee (9:27:17 PM): I just adore him and I would do
anything right now just to know that he doesn't hate me,
it's my fault he got mad and I shouldn't have said what I
said
cheesestickjimmy (9:27:32 PM): she just said just let him
go just like that
cheesestickjimmy (9:27:41 PM): and are u gonna answer my
question
MistyOWee (9:28:28 PM): No! lol.. she was like "Well if
he's goingto be that way then I don't know, I guess just
let him go" but then later she was like "oh he'll come
around" I don't know, she's not a very big help, I mean
she's there for me and stuff, but I don't know her that
well cuz I just moved here not too long ago
MistyOWee (9:28:51 PM): But I don't want to let him go b/c
he's the best thing I ever had
cheesestickjimmy (9:29:10 PM): answer my question
MistyOWee (9:29:13 PM): I seriously care about him so much
and I tried telling him but I don't know what else to say
MistyOWee (9:29:16 PM): ..why?
cheesestickjimmy (9:29:45 PM): just answer it
cheesestickjimmy (9:29:45 PM): plz
cheesestickjimmy (9:29:45 PM): lol
MistyOWee (9:29:54 PM): why?? I don't even know you lol
cheesestickjimmy (9:30:09 PM): lol
cheesestickjimmy (9:30:12 PM): just wondering
cheesestickjimmy (9:30:12 PM): u gonna tell me
MistyOWee (9:30:23 PM): R u even listening to anythign else
I'm saying?
cheesestickjimmy (9:30:48 PM): ya
MistyOWee (9:30:54 PM): okay..
cheesestickjimmy (9:31:02 PM): i am
cheesestickjimmy (9:31:02 PM): but id listen better
cheesestickjimmy (9:31:08 PM): if u just told me
MistyOWee (9:31:13 PM): why does it matter?
MistyOWee (9:31:58 PM): If you wanna know the truth I
really don't like giving head all that much, I'm not really
comfortable with that, I mean I am, but it's not like it's
a hobby
--
After ALL this talk about whether or not I swallow, I
finally give him some phoney answer, and he leaves, cuz
he's found out what he's wanted to know. Something that has
nothing to do with what a relationship should have to do
with.
--
cheesestickjimmy (9:32:13 PM): but do u swallow?
MistyOWee (9:32:27 PM): I could, either or, it doesn't
really matter to me
cheesestickjimmy (9:32:46 PM): mk
cheesestickjimmy (9:32:46 PM): i c
cheesestickjimmy (9:32:55 PM): but i have to go
cheesestickjimmy (9:32:55 PM): i will see u later
MistyOWee (9:33:07 PM): oh okay, can I add you to my list?
cheesestickjimmy (9:33:35 PM): if u want
MistyOWee (9:33:50 PM): Okay... bye..

================

I know. I should call him right now, and tell him how big
of an asshole he is. But I can't.


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mr_rumpy:
Misty: Wow, maybe this will make me not like him anyway
mr_rumpy: lol
Misty: yeah, its not funy
mr_rumpy: well it is if ya look at it
Misty: um, no
Misty: not if u saw what he was saying
mr_rumpy: your so broke up then happy and then maybe i just
wont like him
mr_rumpy: aahhh hes being an ass again
Misty: well yeha cuz of the shit hes saying to me
mr_rumpy: shouuld i kick his ass?
Misty: *sigh* i dunno
mr_rumpy: just a wee bit
mr_rumpy: ill even talk all hardcore canadian
mr_rumpy: imaboot to kick your arse
Misty: **insert Convo**
mr_rumpy: wow
mr_rumpy: i dunno what to say beiseds that he seem way to
interested in getting head
Misty: **insert convo**
mr_rumpy: ok he is being an ass
Misty: this fuckin is stupid
Misty: fuck this
Misty: now the question is
Misty: tommorow
Misty: do i go up to him, and be like "hey travis, do you
swallow?" or do i keep my mouth shut
mr_rumpy: uummmm im not sure about that one
Misty: if i say anything to him
Misty: he'll hate me forever, even tho he has ABSOLUTELY no
right to
mr_rumpy: it was cool at teh start but then he just got all
stupid
Misty: exactly
Misty: wow, now THAT really breaks my heart
Misty: would you be hurt if you were me?
mr_rumpy: yeah i would be
Misty: *sigh*
mr_rumpy: now the question is do you wanna be as low as he
is or be the bigger person
Misty: ......
Misty: this really sucks
mr_rumpy: this sucks cause for once i dont really have an
idea of what to say
Misty: i feel really really sick
mr_rumpy: this sucks so bad cause i wanna help
Misty: =
Misty: i give up
Misty: life is a fuckin joke

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I give up.




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