Static

Hate
2004-01-26 04:36:53 (UTC)

why do i cry?

Why do i cry? why do i sit here and take everything? why
is it that everything i do is wrong? why si that i am not
good enough for anyone? what makes him so much better? why
doesnt she know why she left me? why am i always in the
dark? why cant someone just let me out...be the light that
i have never had before? why ask for it when i know it
will never happen? why ask for it when i know that if you
want it, it wont come to you? what is wrong with me? why
am i like this? why do i want to die? just a fucking
girl...how can one person do this to someone? what the
hell is going on? I WANT MY FUCKING LIFE BACK! i want her
nack...cant ever have it, not ever again....cant ever love
again. just want my life back...just want to get this
over...cant, cant go through this...cant get through
this...am i alive? or os all this a subconsious dream? if
it was
i wish it would hurry the hell up so i could wake up?


everyone, listen to this song: Joe Satriani-always with
me, always with you

thats the song that made me feel like i was alive and had
everything to live up to. But that was when i was with
lily. i hate myself...i want to die, but i am already
dead. dear aaron, I hate you, you are pathetic, you are
incompitent, you are inept, you are worthless, you are
nothing. Kill yourself.-love aaron's better half.


i lovelily more than life its self...she is everything to
me. but bobby is more to her than i ever was. She was the
reason i lived...now i am dead.




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