Codesmith

Life, Or Something Like It
2004-01-24 15:48:32 (UTC)

Laura

Well, I realized my family is falling apart. It's just
kind of weird. I'm not really that mad or upset. Actually,
I am just neutral. I don't have much care. To whether this
can be attributed to some kind of delayed reaction or
perhaps I just don't really care, leaves to be seen.

Mel and I chatted yesterday. Was for a really really long
time. Talked bout stuff, some funny and some serious. Well
mostly funny. Sex and things like that. The funny
stuff, ... just stories we shared about our lives while we
were away from each other. We've been alot more affection
towards each other. In fact, I recall accidentally sending
Laura a message I didn't mean to go through.

Speaking of Laura, her email addy is destroyed with no
hope of redemption apparently. But she found another means
to contact me. Very interesting. I wonder what she's up to
now.

I want to write more, but it seems way to early in the
morning to do it. It's 1043am at the moment. I feel kinda
good, and yet a little bad. Bad in that, I'm a bit
insecure about this thing with Melanie. I mean, ... well I
guess I am just overreacting. Everytime I think that
Melanie isn't serious bout what she feels I remind myself
she contacted me after all this time. Not the other way
around. But when I tell myself that, I say well she's just
using me for some kind of social attatchment thing. I'm
not sure how to address that. Or counter it. In fact, I am
sure if I did I might come up with another reason to
disuade me of the fact that she isn't serious. But just
reading our converation log, it's like freaking 6 hours
long. No one can talk that long unless your really bored.
Or which was in my case, really in love.

At any rate, I'll talk more bout other stuff later. Right
now I just kinda feel like relaxing and doing nothing.
Which is kinda what I've been doing a ton of the last.. uh
month.

Oh well. It's been almost like a month since Melanie and I
have been talking. I feel, kinda good.. sometimes jealous.

I hope Laura logs off soon, want to tease her a bit more
bout nothing in general. Hm, thinking bout Laura now.
Hehe. Funny girl.




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