AJF

g-unit
2004-01-22 04:15:17 (UTC)

My Heart is now a piece of shit.....its gone

Ok, so Jeff called, but i wasnt home...so i had to call
him, and when i did, he knew it was me, and he said hello,
and i could tell he is supper pissed at me...i'm supper
pissed at me too...but...i dont know what to do, either
i'm sick, or i got so nerviouse, that i threw up....while
i was talking to him...well, i told him to hold on a sec,
as i ran to the bath room, but still, i asked him if he
hates me, and he said he doesnt hate me, he is just very,
very mad, and i would be too, if i were jeff...so, i asked
if we were still friends, and he said he doesnt know...he
doesnt know if he can forgive me or not...i'm not sure if
he should either, but all i know is that i love him, and i
cant live with out him, so i willl seriously end up dying
if he says we arent friends...so, we had plans to just
hang out on sunday, but i guess we dont have them any
more, and he also told me, that it's never going to happen
again...with me...the whole cheating thing is what i think
he was talking about, i hope he was talking about
that...see, i somehow find a way to screw up every good
thing in my life, and here i am, crying, cause i screwd
the best thing in my life up...i miss jeff right now, and
i'm sure he is just thinkng about x...i really need to
die...i dont know what i was thinking, but earlier, after
i talked to jeff the first time, i decided to bang my head
agents a chair, with a lot of fource, so now, i have
this...egg like bump jetting out of the center of my
forhead...and it looks horrible...i was gonna say that now
no guy is gonna want me, but thats how it is now, but i
only want jeff to want me, the way i want him...




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