scooter

scooter's life:smothered in stupid
2004-01-20 22:46:56 (UTC)

contentment vs. happiness

it wont stop!!! no matter what i do, the pain wont go
away!!! left ryan cause it was too painful and now there
are other pains too!! why cant something be nice????? why
cant something feel good? masturbating isnt nice
anymore!!!! i feel like im struggling to find some
happiness in life and there is none to be had because i was
last in line and everyone else has theirs and there was not
enough for the people at the end. i dont think happiness is
rationed equally among all people. its the same with pains.
i know that its all about how you handle the pain, but some
people werent equiped with the materials to conquer their
problems. i just want to be happy. i want to be happy. i
dont want to be jealous, i dont want to be sad, i dont want
to be angry. i know these are all things that make me human
but i do not want to be human. i want to be happy. happy
and human are obviously antonyms. tell me. someone please
reply to this entry and tell me whether or not you are
happy in your life. is it happiness??? or is it just
contentment? happiness and contentment are also different.
are you satisfied or exstatic? are you warm or hot? human
satisfaction is a difficult thing to achieve. if that is
difficult to achieve, then imagine happiness. happiness
that is so much higher than contentment. so much greater.
its like comparing the dollar store to neman marcus. BIG
DIFFERENCE. turkey sandwhich to the whole damn turkey.
ugggg. scooter*




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