Meelve

Another day
2004-01-19 23:38:38 (UTC)

wrong way...

Okay so now he's being so nice. Today I was upset about
my life in general, and I just wanted to drop out and give
up because I came to the conclusion nothing is ever going
to go my way. He talked me down from everythign and made
me realize that things will work out in the end. All I
want to do at this point is drop out from school and move
to sarnia. A friend of mine from school told me I needed
to do that, and just now so did his roomate. I guess he
gets really bitchy when I leave, and she likes him alot
better when I'm around. I don't want him to be anything
other than what I know. His grouchiness isn't going to
help him in the long run. I hope he knows that. He told
me today not to give up my new years resolution, and that
I needed to just keep trying and I'd eventually succeed.
I just want to succeed with him beside me. And by the way
his roomate talks, if it wasn't for the distance maybe
things would be different. But then again maybe he's just
stressed with her. And maybe it has nothing to do with
me. I am a psych major, you can't make conclusions from
correlations (stupid stats!). He makes me so happy, and
he's made me feel so good about myself lately,
complementing me and stuff. I never used to let it get to
my head, but it's nice when you do. I like it, and I took
it for granted for so long. I so want to be with him
again. I wish I could just change things so that he was
here with me. I want that spark, I want the caring look
of concern he gives me I miss all that. I miss him.




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